Internet, I am sick. Coughing, weezing, sneezing, watery eyes, itchy, runny nose, stuffy nose (I don’t know how it is possible to have both a runny and stuffy nose, but alas, I do). I don’t know what I have, but I think it is some sort of bronchitis/upper respirator infection. This has been going on for, I want to say, four weeks? Five weeks? Something like that. And in this time I have been heavily medicated, and it hasn’t helped. Oh, and on top of that, I have not been able to sleep through the night. I’m like a baby- I wake up every hour on the hour. And not just because of the sickness, though that does play a large part. Because of all the PANIC ATTACKS! associated with STRESS. So, yes, these past few weeks have been…. a nightmare (pun totally intended) hence the no blogging.
So what do I have to be stressed about? Pretty much everything in the world relating to school. I’m enrolled in my methods courses which are three English Education courses. One is just a regular class, but the other two are “seminars” and I can’t begin to tell you how much work I have in each of those classes, not to mention the two other classes I am taking. I pretty much go into class everyday and am assigned a new project to work on. And these projects can not just be completed the night before they are due; they require a lot, a lot, a lot of work resulting in weeks/months of preparation and data and other crap. And on top of that I have anywhere from 60-100 pages of readings due A NIGHT. And being sick on top of all of this doesn’t help, because I don’t end up going to bed until 12 or 1 am, and I’m not sleeping through the night, and then I have to get up at 6:30 to teach. (Oh, and when I wake up at 6:30, I discover my closet has flooded, thanks to the tropical storm we have been having. Let me tell you, nothing better than a soaked closet at 6:30 in the morning.)
If you are one of those people who can go to bed that late and wake up that early, congrats, good for you. I am not one of those people. I need sleep, and I’m simply not getting enough (when I actually do sleep). So why don’t I just skip classes for a couple of days and play catch up later? I’m so glad you asked. You see, if you miss three or more of these methods classes, my professors have the right to KICK YOU OUT OF THE PROGRAM. The program I’ve been working in for the last FIVE YEARS OF MY LIFE.
I’m not trying to make excuses, Internet. But if you don’t hear from me for a while, assume I’m either working or I’ve finally had a mental breakdown. Because I’m pretty darn close to one.