Monthly Archives: April 2010

I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky…

Perception is a funny thing, specifically how we perceive people. There are these girls on campus who, even on the hottest of hot days or the coldest of cold days, look perfect. Not a single hair is out of place, their clothes are perfectly ironed, makeup flawless, like they put no effort into it at all. And I am sitting there, sweating or freezing, feeling like my hair looks a hot mess, my makeup terrible and I just feel all gross.

And I am quite envious of these girls who look so put together. I want to be that. Not necessarily those girls, but just put together. I want to feel pretty and clean all the time, and not think “omg my thighs are as big as that tree trunk and no one is ever going to notice me blah blah blah.” Because, I kid you not, I am usually thinking thoughts like that every single second I am walking to class.

But an interesting thing happened tonight. I was walking back to my room from the bathroom. I had just gotten a shower, my hair was a total mess, no makeup, I even had on my “I don’t care pajamas”– really big sloppy shirt and baggy pants. As I was going to be in my dorm for the rest of the evening I didn’t have anyone to impress. As I was walking back to my room I ran into a friend who looked at me, stepped back, and said “WOAH! You don’t look well at all! You usually look so put together, I’m always jealous of how well together you look!”

And I completely chose to ignore the negative connotation of that comment, because she said something I never realized before. I look put together to other people. Huh. Here I am, obsessing because I don’t like how I look in the majority of the clothes I own (save a few outfits) and I always think my hair is hideous and blah blah blah and it turns out I look put together.

I find this whole situation funny because lately I’ve been watching a whole lot of What Not To Wear. Granted, I usually only watch this for the clothes/Clinton’s beautiful face, but I’ve been noticing lately how negatively these women view themselves. And I totally do the same thing!

Maybe I am more put together and in control of it than I think. Who knows, maybe those perfect girls are obsessing a little in their own heads. Probably not. But it is a nice thought…


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So Much Excitement!

There is this author that I like, maybe you have heard me mention him before… his name is JOHN GREEN. And HE HAS A NEW BOOK OUT TOMORROW. It is called Will Grayson, Will Grayson.

I’ve been calling around to different stores trying to find out who is and is not carrying it. My friend Kelly and I wanted to purchase it from an independent store rather than a chain store, but none of them seem to be stocking it. Sad face. So I called Boarders, because they aren’t doing to well, and I thought it would be fun to give them my business. And then this conversation happened:

Lady: “Boarders, how can I help you?”

Me: “Yes, I was wondering if you could tell me if you were carrying a new release book Will Grayson, Will Grayson? It comes out tomorrow.”

Lady: “Will Grayson?”

Me: “Yes,  Will Grayson, Will Grayson.”

Lady: “That is the title?”

Me: “Yes.”

Lady: “Who is the author?”

Me: “It is co-authored by John Green and David Levithan.”

Lady: “And that is W-I-L-L?”

Me: “Yes.”

Lady: “So Will Grayson?”

Me: “Yes. G-R-A-Y-S-O-N.”

Lady: “And then you repeat it?”

Me: “Yes.”

Lady: “So….*pause*…Will Grayson and then Will Grayson again?”

Me: “Yes.”

Lady: “Okaaaay…. well it says the street date is tomorrow, but I don’t know how many will be on the table.”

Me: “So you will be selling some?”

Lady: “I don’t know how many will be on the table.”

Me: “Okay, thank you!”

Don’t you just love people?!? After I hung up I laughed for a really long time. I think I might hit up my Barnes & Noble just in case. I mean, they only have four copies out, but I doubt many people in my town are reading John Green (though I wish this were not the case). I will say that this is supposedly the most mature book of his, and he has stated in the video I will post below that middleschoolers (and preschoolers) should not read it.

I can’t wait to buy it! If I didn’t have class it would be the FIRST thing I would do tomorrow morning. Sadly, I have no car and two classes I can’t miss. Oh well! Tomorrow afternoon I will have it, and probably post my review within the week! I’M SO EXCITED!

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