Today I just randomly started humming the Star Spangled Banner. Kind of weird.
Today’s topic of conversation comes from my lovely BEDA buddy Ayan. She asks, “What would you do if you found out your friend was a murderer?” (Click here to read her post about the Craigslist killer.)
This is a very good question because I have absolutely no idea what I would do. I mean initially I would most likely FREAK OUT. But I really think I would begin to pester them with questions. Who have they killed? Why did they kill them? How did they kill them? Are they afraid for their lives? Do they think they will get caught? Why haven’t they killed me yet? And things like that.
I would like to say I would tell the cops, but I honestly don’t know. I do know that I would probably not be able to trust anyone for a very, very long time. I think I am having trouble figuring out what I would do because I am trying to imagine two of my really close friends as killers, and the thought just sort of makes me chuckle. They are really sweet girls and I can’t imagine them actually killing people. But then again, sometimes when you hear about killers in the news and stuff they just sort of snap and go on killing sprees. Who knows what kind of issues they are dealing with behind closed doors, if they are suffering from depression, or if they are mentally insane.
I think that is why it is important to share your feelings and problems out loud. If you are feeling depressed or hopeless that doesn’t mean you are a bad person. Talk to someone. If you can’t open up to your family and/or friends about it, find a therapist and talk to them. It doesn’t do well to bottle up emotions and keep them inside. When this happens those feelings can manifest into much stronger, deeper emotions that can lead you to cause physical and mental harm not only on yourself, but on others as well.
Have a happy April everyone! See you tomorrow.
Hamlet update: He loves food time. He is also staring at me right now. I think he knows I am talking about him.